she looks like a Water Goddess, her smiles can move a mountain,
she is a personification of beauty.
she has this courage about her that got me hooked about her,
he is the prettiest and sexiest,
she has got this nice sexy looking body and shape that can lead a monk to hell.
i’m really happy to talk to her.
you are a beauty to behold.
i really want you!
The hardest thing I’ve ever done is keep believing
There’s someone in this crazy world for me.
The way that people come and go through temporary lives,
My chance could come and I might never know.
I used to say, “No promises, let’s keep it simple”,
But freedom only helps you say goodbye.
It took awhile for me to learn that nothing comes for free.
The price I’ve paid is high enough for me.
CHORUS
I know I need to be in love,
I know I’ve wasted too much time.
I know I ask perfection of a quite imperfect world,
And fool enough to think that’s what I’ll find.
So here I am with pockets full of good intentions,
But none of them will comfort me tonight.
I’m wide awake at 4 AM without a friend in sight.
Hanging on a hope, but I’m alright.
CHORUS
I’ve always admired & loved this song because I can relate to each & every lines.
But now, I dont need to be in love.
Because I am…
With a guy who’ve a different race, color, religion, beliefs & values than mine.
And not to mention, 22 yrs my senior.
I dont know, for some reasons, I tend to fall with mature & older guys.
Coz I love to be babied…
But in turn, am the one baby-ing them.
Going back, I rarely write bout my lovelife.
Which have been silent for quite awhile.
Until I found this guy.
Actually, its the other way around.
Until he found me.
Met him on a site where my bestfriend met her other half.
He dropped my profile.
In turn, I visited his as well.
He left me a message, that the next time I visit, I say hello.
And so I did.
The next thing we knew, we’ve exchanged numbers & friendly text and messages.
He invited me for a lunch which I courteously declined because I’ve shift that night.
He wanna see me bec he’ll be leaving for Zamboanga for 1 1/2 mos project.
I only appreciated the guy when he left.
He sent me messages every now & then.
We’ve committed w/o even meeting each other.
Exchanged i love you’s & goodbyes in between.
We’re already split-up when we met.
Eventually got back together last month.
For no apparent reason, there’s this powerful force that made us believed & hoped for one more chance together.
He barely have time for me, though.
Which I always complain.
At times, I threw tantrums which he sometimes perfectly understands.
It’s always bout work.
If I could let him choose between work & me, he’ll opt for his career.
Stiff kind of guy, serious bout life, practical & productive.
Maybe that explains his behavior being a retired military.
He won’t let his time passed by w/o doing nothing.
Wont answer my questions & if he will do, he wont go into details.
Don’t say things that will make him reveal how he really feels.
Definitely good at hiding emotions.
But despite our difference, I’ve learned to value, care & love the guy.
In spite of his indifference, he showed me his sincerity & sensitivity.
I could have chosen a fair-skinned one but its him that my heart opted.
I have to thank myself because lately I’ve learned how to soften him up.
He’s more appreciative, now open on how he really feels.
Still hesitant in giving out informations but am getting to know bits & pieces of him as we go along…
He now answers most of my qusetions.
Says he loves, wants & needs me which he finds cheesy at the start.
Sometimes, he will just messaged me out of nowhere that he dont wanna lose me.
And that he misses & cant wait to see me.
That I am worth waiting & keeping.
He’s back in Zambo, this time for a 3-mos project.
So I will see him in Sept.
I don’t know where this would lead us.
Most of my friends still questions his motives & intentions.
Almost cried when Mommy Nancy told me that hope he realizes how valuable I am…
But on my end, hope to stick with him until I can.
I love the guy, and I think that’s far more important.
They would always tease me bout my current status.
I would always respond back jokingly, that I’m taken - not a Liam Neeson movie, huh!
But hopefully not for granted….
Hmmm, been awhile since I last blogged.
Got busy for awhile for ‘not so’ important things.
But what matters most is am back on my feet again.
Ready to soar…
Quoting Alfred Souza, for a long time it had seemed to me that life was about to begin–real life. But there was always some obstacle in the way, something to be gotten through first, some unfinished business, time still to be served, then life would begin. At last it dawned on me that these obstacles were my life.
So many things had happened on every May 1st of m life.
It’s a Labor Day to begin with.
Which happens to be a holiday & my off, fortunately.
This is the day we moved from Pasay to Quezon City 19 yrs ago.
The day I got my lab results, but my doctor is out to translate with me the findings, if I will be needing to undergo a MRI or CT scan for my persistent headaches for quite some time now.
Went to Trinoma with Beam & Riza.
Bought my 4th pair of havs, ate cheesy melts @ KFC.
Got some items for my store. Ate my fave comfort food, ice cream.
Supposed to meet my almost-to be-now never someone-lets see what will happen next- Ebriheim.
Bought my replacement wallet (black Prada) my wallet was almost robbed - given by my bessie Jho, a shiny shimmering gold LV beaded purse.
Got my haircut & eyebrow done.
Bought cake roll for Shengks but too tired to send them over.
Just some…that completed my May 1st.
And oh, watched ‘You, Me and Dupree and fell asleep at the middle of the flick.
Just browsing on my old mails & came across with this one.
Wanna share with all the magaganda’s
Amusing but true.
The real measure of a woman’s worth is not valued by her money or material possessions. ..
but by the contents of her Heart, Soul & Mind”
Para sa Mga Magaganda!!! !
Before, hinahabol kita pero di mo ako pinapansin.
Tapos isang araw nawala ako, hinanap mo ako at
tinanong, “Bakit ka nagsawa?” Ngumiti ako, “Hindi ako
nagsawa. Natauhan lang.” Pwede mo kong lokohin pero
wag kang magpapahuli sakin. Pwede mo kong palitan
pero siguraduhin mong mas mahal mo siya sakin. Pwede
mo kong iwan pero siguraduhin mong kaya mo. Kasi pag
ako sobrang nasaktan, wala ka nang babalikan.
Ang Boys? Pag trip ka, magpapakilala. Kaibigan kuno
hanggang pumorma na.Tapos pag nahulog ka na,
ayun, goodbye na dahil sawa na sila. Pero dapat walang
iiyak at smile lang tayo. Punyeta, anong silbi ng karma?
I fell in love and got hurt but I didn’t shed too
much tears nor did I ask him to love me again.
Instead, I stood up proudly and said, “Ganyan talaga
ang magaganda! Hindi bagay sa tanga!”
Simple lang para hindi ka masaktan. Kapag minahal ka,
mahalin mo din. Kapag ginago ka, gaguhin mo rin.
Pero kapag umiyak ka, tanga ka! Ginago ka na nga, iiyakan mo pa?
Pag iniwan ka ng mahal mo, wag mo siyang sisihin!
Kausapin mo siya ng harap-harapan at sabihin mong,
“Ingat, tanga ka pa naman!”
Masakit pag iniwan ka ng mahal mo. Pero wag kang
magagalit ng husto. Kahit papano may pinagsamahan
naman kayo, diba? Kaya for the last time
yakapin mo siya at ibulong mo, “Gago, kukulamin kita!”
Girls, talo daw tayo sa mga boys? Papayag kayo? Sige,
pag niligawan tayo, sagot agad . Pag iniwan tayo? Ok
lang. Kapag sinabi nilang, “Uy, ex ko.”
Alam niyo sagot diyan? “Ay, ambisyoso.”
If the one you love doesn’t love you back, don’t get
depressed. Just think about it for a while, maybe cry
a bit then wipe your tears and say, “Ang weird naman
niya. Di siya pumapatol sa magaganda!”
You only got one life so live it well., one heart so
take good care, one soul so keep it pure. One
boyfriend? What a waste! Make it two or more!
Sayang ganda natin!
Pag sinabi sayo ng mahal mo na ayaw na niya sayo,
hayaan mo lang. Wag kang iiyak at magpapakagago!
Imbis na iyakan mo siya, ngitian mo lang at sabihin mo
ang ganito, “So, pano? Bye na! Naghihintay na ang kapalit mo!”
Who cares about break-ups? Oo nga, masakit. Makirot sa
puso. Pero tandaan mo: a break-up isn’t only an end
to a relationship. It’s also a beginning of a new one
and an end to a living hell called “ex”.
You might regret putting an end to something that once made you smile…
You might even cry your eyes out whenever you miss the way it used to be..
But remember that time heals almost everything…
And the time will come when you will no longer cry when you remember it,
Instead you’ll smile & think how better off you are since then.
Someone is anonymously sending me messages everyday from my YM inbox…
Received:
(1/11/2009 6:18:55 PM):
The sun sets Upon the golden sand
We sit together Hand in hand
We gently embrace
And look into each other’s eyes
I wonder if you are an angel in disguise
You hold me like there’s no tomorrow
I suddenly forget the past sorrow
I kiss your soft lips and you kiss mine
I never knew Loving someone could be this fine
Oh how a love can blossom and a heart can bloom.
Your touch is so gentle
But your hands so strong
How could a love like this ever go wrong?
My heart is beating 200 times a minute
Because my love you are in it
The sound of your heartbeat all through the night
We fall asleep in each other’s arms
And wake to the morning light. I look into your eyes
And this is when I say “Thank You”
For teaching me to love again…
Received:
1/14/09 @ 11am
A gentle word like a spark of light,
Illuminates my soul
And as each sound goes deeper,
It’s YOU that makes me whole
There is no corner, no dark place,
YOUR LOVE cannot fill
And if the world starts causing waves,
It’s your devotion that makes them still
And yes you always speak to me,
In sweet honesty and truth
Your caring heart keeps out the rain,
YOUR LOVE, the ultimate roof
So thank you my Love for being there,
For supporting me, my life
I’ll do the same for you, you know,
My Beautiful, my Darling, my love.
received: 1/5/09 10am after shift
Beautiful eyes open across a pillow top,
It seems for this moment time will stop,
The earth slows and sounds wane,
A frozen moment without stain.
Your body close to mine,
Our hearts beat in time,
With a smile of simple pleasure,
This moment should last forever.
Some say perfection is unattainable
For most things that’s explainable,
But in your arms and with your heart’s affection
I have found a brief moment of perfection.
12/24/08
Message received:
hello dear,
I don’t have words for You…Really
You are simply….. DIVINE
are You a Princess??
Kiss for now……I hope……………………………..Nico
Throughout the course of November the two experience several breakups.
Nelson examines his life and his past in great detail.
During their adventures Nelson befriends a fatherless child called Abner (Liam Aiken).
Eventually Nelson realizes that he is deeply in love with Sara and asks her to marry him.
This sets in motion a sudden chain of events that reveal Sara’s terminal cancer.
Because Sara cannot bear to have Nelson experience her decline in health and eventual death, she asks him to leave.
For a time Nelson complies with her wishes, but then stages a surprise return during her Thanksgiving dinner.
What seems to be a perfect reunion is ruined when Nelson wakes up the next morning to find that Sara is once again asking him to leave.
Sara tries to run away but Nelson runs after her.
Eventually they catch up and in the tearful scene that follows Sara asks Nelson to leave so that he will always have only happy and strong memories of her.
Sara explains that she needs to know this is how she will be remembered, so that she can face her last days in life.
The movie ends with Sara blindfolding Nelson (a revisitation of an activity they had done earlier in the month) and then walking away.
The rules are simple…
No questions…
No holding back…
….And absolutely not more than one month.
Why a month?
Because it’s long enough to be meaningful, but short enough to stay out of trouble.
Worrying about losing keeps you winning.
–You live in a box…I could lift the lid… –Wow…that’s deep.
I really can’t relate to Sara’s character here.
I don’t know if I can have the guts to even think what she’ve done to hook Nelson.
But I know I need to get involved with someone.
Enough with Boom and Beam.
It’s not that I will stop loving these two loving, sweet, affectionate, little individuals.
But I just need to devote more time for myself.
I really need to practice now especially that I’ve plans of working overseas next year.
I rarely remember how to be in a relationship anymore.
Dont wanna impose rules anymore.
Dont want to call the shots this time..
Dont want to be the one to decide for my man.
If ever, haha!
I have my few admirers online, but that’s about it.
Swedish, Belgian, Canadian, French, British, Malaysian, Turkish, Findlander (acdg to Ben) & recently, someone from Singapore.
I dont really know what to believe to anything they say.
I”ve unawarely commited to a Swiss guy last Oct. 18 who endeared me with nick ‘Princess’.
He’s suppose to come here this month for a vacation, however, he lied to me before that he got no kid/s, during one of our conversations, he slipped that he had an eleven-year old daughter here in the Phils. that he wants to get a Swiss visa.
Some of the traits I value mosts are honesty and loyalty.
If you can’t give me those, you’re out.
So, I decided not to continue..
Woh, whatta blog on my birthday!
Team & my friends, thanks for all the wishes and greetings!
